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November 16, 2008
What kind of illness...
... doesn't stop after a 2 months?
I've had chronic muscle pain, coughing, fatigue, headaches, and fever for weeks. I throw up here and there for no reason, and this is in addition to the wonderful back pain that's found me in the hospital three times this year. The latest ailment is my left leg going numb from time to time for hours at a spell.
They though my liver was messed up but it turns out it's not. I've been through so many medical procedures I can't even tell you. I'm pretty much at a point where I realize there's one last answer and one I'm not entirely ready to hear.
It wouldn't be so bad it it was controllable, but when the muscle and what feels like pain in my bones, kicks in there's about nothing they can do. Vicodan? doesn't touch it. Diluadid? lasts an hour or two. Muscle relaxants? LOL all they do is make me groggy and in pain.
The latest theory is that my brain is able to register the uptake of pain but not the release. That came after the electro shock and nerve needles.
I've learned this:
The standard doctor thinks it's a standard flu,
The internist thought it was an internal organ,
The physical therapist thought it was an atrophied muscle,
The neurologist thinks it's neurological.
Because it's not a tough pattern to crack I imagine the oncologist will think it's cancer, the dentist will think it's tooth decay... so on.
I need House. Sure he'll yell at me, break into my home, be wrong twice before he's right, I'll come to the edge of death, it'll draw a foil to something in his own life, then in some chance passing he'll realize the answer and make a miraculous treatment plan that shows recovery in 24 hours.
The treatments are so strange that they're starting to get fun. The same week I got electro shock, they gave me an ointment just released to market which requires you to rub Voltaren (basically like a really strong alleve) onto ricepaper. This causes some sort of chemical reaction that creates medicinal synergy and then you rub it into the affected area. It adds the quaintest tingling sensation to the pain... but that's about it. I knew it wasn't promising when I heard the rice paper aspect.
I always knew I wouldn't live to be a ripe old age, but I never thought the road would be so rough.
Posted by Decemberice at November 16, 2008 04:25 PM
Comments
Rice paper? Oh man, I hope they find out what's going on. I really feel bad you're having a tough time, and even worse I've sucked at keeping in touch.
Feel better, ok?
Posted by: Zoso at November 29, 2008 03:03 PM